Emotional Journal

Dear Diary;

Ok… Time to talk about emotions I guess… They go all over all the time – I’ve always been like that, but the last half a year to year, they’ve been even more wild. I’ve been sick lately too, which hasn’t helped. Like just now, I got mad at a CD box that refused to open.

Let’s go a bit more in depth then… But I’ll try and keep it to the past week. At work the printer and computer tend to do a lot of things that set me off anger-wise, but not long after I’m back to a general malaise and keep moving.

Friday and Saturday were ok. Fairly smooth sailing with the exception of a laptop locking up and that pissing me off for a few seconds. I rebooted it and all was ok. I think the hard drive in it is starting to go out… Sunday was our gaming session we do every 2 weeks. I wasn’t really into it at first, but after we got started I had a lot of fun and I hope they did as well. After that I went home and went to bed since i was severely exhausted.

Monday someone online said something to me that struck me wrong and my mood at the time went from generally depressed and feeling like crap to annoyed and a bit pissed. Then of course they intentionally egged me on and they really got to me so I reported them to a mod and walked away for a while. After that I dropped into the normal malaise. Tuesday I got 4 packages, and I was super happy for most of a day after that. It’s always nice to know you’re loved enough for people to send you packages. True, I did pay for them all… But still… I got a lot of the hobby stuff I’ve been waiting a good while for.

Wednesday I couldn’t get warm and I got sicker. I felt like crap all night but I stayed up and did some wiring on some electronics. Drank a lot of water too, but of course I’m still dehydrated… And here we are on Thursday. I have a headache, I feel terrible, I have little to no energy to do anything, and I think I’ll go back to bed in a few.

And this is only a small sampling too. I’ll have to keep on this and write more in future entries. Honestly, I don’t mind being moody like this – I’ve dealt with it to varying degrees for most of my life, but I think it’s still interesting since there aren’t many people that I know that seem to go through this sort of thing. Lol! Maybe it has something to do with that extra set of ribs my mom said I was born with.


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